A few weeks ago, I posed a question on Twitter and Facebook, asking the single ladies to share where they were in their single walk. LaTosha was one of the first to respond. After reading her story (and her giving me permission to post) I knew I had to share. I liked that she shared the reality of her single mother experience, the lessons she learned, and how she's allowing God to prepare her personally and to one day be a wife. Her story is very inspiring. Here is her Open Letter.
I am a single mother of a 2-year-old. Being a single mom has honestly been a struggle for me. It’s hard to pay all the bills by myself, clean, work, take care of my daughter, and at one point I was a full time graduate student but am currently taking a sabbatical because it was becoming too much. I wished someone was there to simply get my daughter dressed in the morning or pack her bag for day care little things like that would mean the world.
For a while I started feeling like God was punishing me for the sin of fornication. Then I was racked with guilt and would constantly cry. I would think things like, “My daughter is being raised in a single parent home because I couldn’t keep my legs closed and she is growing up without a father figure and it’s all my fault”. It just seemed so unfair to her.
As for me, I use to hate not having anyone to call and talk to and dreaded when the weekend would come and I would sit at home alone. Then I realized that all those thoughts came from the enemy. I kept telling God that I was ready for him to send my husband then finally one day he spoke to me and told me that if I were really ready he would have already sent him.
From that time on God began to place people in my life that started teaching me what it really means to be a wife and what marriage is all about. I quickly realized that I had a lot to learn. Now I tell people I am in preparation I am convinced that God is preparing me and I am content with my singleness. Now that does not mean that I still don’t want to get married. It simply means that I want to be ready.
I am excited about this time in my life because I am becoming someone’s wife and it keeps me mindful of what is to come. In this process I’m learning to be patient and trust God. In this time it is just me and God a time for me to get more intimate with him.
Feel free to comment and encourage LaTosha in her single walk. I believe when we lift each other up during this single journey, it gives us the fuel we need to live the lives that God has called us to live.